This is me.

Im trying to be uncencored here and say things I might not otherwise say. I feel like this is ok because no one that I know reads my blog. I suppose feelings could get hurt but I don't know if I care about other peoples feelings anymore.

I had my heart broken back in 2009 and I'm still recovering. Sometimes it hard to feel anything at all. I guess this is therapy for me.

So if you get anything out of this, then awesome. I'll still be here, typing away, trying to make sense of this mess called my life.

Friday, August 6, 2010

A Brief History

So Wes flipped out at the fact that I still have a DList page. He asked if I was sleeping with other people and I told him I was. He ended it.

Then he un-ended it. He told me he loves me. He said he just couldn't live with me being with someone else.

I tried explaining that I wasn't ready for commitment. I reminded him that I told him I was seeing someone(Alex) months ago and he told me not to tell him about it. I tried to tell him how much Royce had hurt me and left me crippled emotionally.

He didn't get it.

So I relived all the most painful, difficult moments of my life for the past seven years.

I think he's starting to get it now.

I don't know if I still want to be with someone who is so young and inexperienced. He just pushed and pushed and pushed.

He might have pushed me out.
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