Falling off my Apron: October 2011

This is me.

Im trying to be uncencored here and say things I might not otherwise say. I feel like this is ok because no one that I know reads my blog. I suppose feelings could get hurt but I don't know if I care about other peoples feelings anymore.

I had my heart broken back in 2009 and I'm still recovering. Sometimes it hard to feel anything at all. I guess this is therapy for me.

So if you get anything out of this, then awesome. I'll still be here, typing away, trying to make sense of this mess called my life.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

I'm thinking of breaking up with my boyfriend.

It's on my mind.

Most of the relationship is good but I am still not getting everything I need from the relationship and I have to look out for myself.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Submerged

I'm drowning.

I'm being pulled beneath the waves. I want to fight but I can't.

Down and down and down and down and down.

And down.

And who would help me? Could you? What would you do? Could you save my lie? When I can't save myself?

They say fake it until you make it.

I don't know if I can fake it long enough to make it.